The thought behind this one is also very weird like the ones behind my other posts. The other day I was watching the movie Delhi 6 and there was a scene in which Wahida Rehman (Abhishek Bachchan’s Dadi in the movie) is buying a vessel as part of a shopping spree she is on for her death and then Abhishek Bachchan says how can anyone go and shop or plan one’s own death and then himself counters that – We cannot decide how we are born but at least we can plan how we will want to die.
So that is when I wondered that I simply Love the Family I am born into, I am so glad to have my parents as my parents, not to forget my brothers but would it be wrong, stupid or sad to think how am I going to die.. Oh believe me.. I have imagined all kinds of uncanny ways in which I might. Since childhood, I have been very FILMY and every time I used to watch a Hindi Movie (knowing how melodramatic they all are) I would imagine my headache as some Brain Tumor or Cancer. Or probably one day I might just wake up and realise that I have Amnesia and I don't know who I am.. also, the famous hospital bed scenes where the patient is taking loooooong breathes as his/her last ones... Ya.. you are right I have always been a complete nautanki... !!
Anyhow(ya ya got drifted again), I am just thinking.. what is so Scary about death? Why such strange reactions while we mention it? Why is it considered so inauspicious? We all know that we were born and we will die one day.. Is it this knowledge of the end that horrifies us?
Fear of Heights: I might fall.. Fear from Water: I might drown.. Claustrophobia: I might choke.. Fear from animals even tiny-miny pests: They might be poisonous.. and "I might Die" - Is this not the core reason behind all these.. I just hope I always fight any kinds of fear I have (Though, I don't have any of these mentioned above.. :D ) So far what I fear most is being left alone and loosing my loved ones or people I care for.. (even because of so many other reasons than The Morbid End)
I have wondered what would I want - to be inscribed on my Gravestone or rather I should say My Photograph (as I am a Hindu) after I am gone.. (whenever that would be). Of course I have got so many Ideas like - The Fairy Tale Girl.. The Family Glue.. This ones the latest - I Love Luv Storys (inspired from the latest hindi movie).. but the one that wins over is "Always Loved".. and that is what I want till I live and even after that..
So my point here is - oh no no - I am not going on a shopping spree for my death, anytime soon (of course I can't guarantee anything for the future).. ;)
Even if we know its going to rain the day after, do we take out our umbrellas today? Even if we think that we might not win, do we stop participating in the Race? Even if we know we might not be loved back, do we stop loving? So what if we know that we will die some day, why to fear living today?
So that is when I wondered that I simply Love the Family I am born into, I am so glad to have my parents as my parents, not to forget my brothers but would it be wrong, stupid or sad to think how am I going to die.. Oh believe me.. I have imagined all kinds of uncanny ways in which I might. Since childhood, I have been very FILMY and every time I used to watch a Hindi Movie (knowing how melodramatic they all are) I would imagine my headache as some Brain Tumor or Cancer. Or probably one day I might just wake up and realise that I have Amnesia and I don't know who I am.. also, the famous hospital bed scenes where the patient is taking loooooong breathes as his/her last ones... Ya.. you are right I have always been a complete nautanki... !!
Anyhow(ya ya got drifted again), I am just thinking.. what is so Scary about death? Why such strange reactions while we mention it? Why is it considered so inauspicious? We all know that we were born and we will die one day.. Is it this knowledge of the end that horrifies us?
Fear of Heights: I might fall.. Fear from Water: I might drown.. Claustrophobia: I might choke.. Fear from animals even tiny-miny pests: They might be poisonous.. and "I might Die" - Is this not the core reason behind all these.. I just hope I always fight any kinds of fear I have (Though, I don't have any of these mentioned above.. :D ) So far what I fear most is being left alone and loosing my loved ones or people I care for.. (even because of so many other reasons than The Morbid End)
I have wondered what would I want - to be inscribed on my Gravestone or rather I should say My Photograph (as I am a Hindu) after I am gone.. (whenever that would be). Of course I have got so many Ideas like - The Fairy Tale Girl.. The Family Glue.. This ones the latest - I Love Luv Storys (inspired from the latest hindi movie).. but the one that wins over is "Always Loved".. and that is what I want till I live and even after that..
So my point here is - oh no no - I am not going on a shopping spree for my death, anytime soon (of course I can't guarantee anything for the future).. ;)
Even if we know its going to rain the day after, do we take out our umbrellas today? Even if we think that we might not win, do we stop participating in the Race? Even if we know we might not be loved back, do we stop loving? So what if we know that we will die some day, why to fear living today?
11 comments:
just njy ur life d way it cums :):) dats d best part of livng
'hum aur zindagi umar bhar ek dusre se ladte rehte hai, aur ant mein jeet mauk ki hoti hai!' - (Tum Bin)
Death is a very weird topic and I think its better to live it alone, because it will come unannounced (mostly). I would definitely prefer a fashionable and unpredictable exit as opposed to a boring deathbed.
And this is my line on the photo-
'Here was one hell off a bloke!!'
For now, make the most of it what you have. There is no second chance here.
Shweta ji... I already appreciate your writing skill and suggested you for writing book.But after reading this blog I am very impress and would say 'SUPERB'... Yaar Movie se bhi depth nikaal li.
Very good Blog..Keep continue
Excellent
Nice Thought .... well u covered the entire lif in ur 3 blogs ..... 1st childhood , den marriage .... and now death ..... well dis wud hav been amazng if we cud plan our death as well....
Imagine we shop a nice dress , a matchng jewellry , nice accessories ..etc etc and d list goes on and on and on ..:P ....
the first thing that came to my mind is... what the world will do if the hope will start to think about death... it is the hope that help people come back alive when they are facing death in front of them... I was really touched by the part "always loved".. i we love people those are close to us... they will never lo away... or even think about it..coz the moment i think about it i just feel the terrible pain they will feel on my going away.... as i will fell in case they will go away....
But i do wish to die before seeing any of my loved one dying... and that's how i wish to die... :)
Someone wise once said to me, death won't exist if life wasn't lived. For one to be meaningful and cherished, so has to be another.
Most of the time we realize that we lived more during the journey, than when reach our destaintion.
@Air - Hope isn't thinking about death in a negative sense.. in fact its a very positive outlook to express my views as wake up and start living and not just waste your life fearing anything.. :)
Your satirical take on Death renders life meaningless. Plan for life , not for death. Its here and now .Live Rhombic & not Phobic.
@Ladies: Tum yahan bhi saj- savar lo..
well....nice work I must say. Liked your drift and then coming back from that drift. About death, it does not scare me. I just want to be remembered as a good person and I am living my life to make that happen.
lol.
i think i completely connected wid dis one.
pretty much cos i drag myself to d extremes too. d minute sumthings wrong wid me, even a slight cold- d exaggeration gets immense. i belv i hav imagined all d wrst case scenarious happenin to me, n amnesia love story ke saath!!
hamari tuning kaafi similar hai na?
also d drama doubly mulplies wid all d added bhaav given by frns n family.
always loved.....sounds gud!
on a whole diffrnt level, its a thot provokin post!
last written in jan. hawww! :o
i really think u shud blog more often!!!! :-)
@Sadiya - I too think i shud write more often... but i hit the writer's block (whatever That is) sooner than I start.. not that good with words.. bt I keep trying.. :D
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